i'm 19 this yr. not 18. :(
sorry daddy for i'm not a boy. i cant carry on the name of our family.
am i a bad girl when i tell u how i felt n u told me i was challenging u?
am i bad girl to reject and go against what u said cause u were accusing me?
am i as your daughter, u are entitled to scold me whenever u wish regardless or what it was. right or wrong and not give a damn to how i felt?

to mummy,

sorry mummy i cant give u money every month to make u feel proud n happy that i am so filial.
but mummy do u know. ur not contented for i only ask of u to pay my school fees and my transport fees( u offered ) and half of the internet bills. is that too much to ask?
do i have the right to be upset when u accused me of oweing u money but when i tried to return it to u u told me it was ok not to return? did u forget or did i remember wrongly?
did i born out in this world to not receive till i'm good enuf to give?
am i a lousy daughter that i cant bring home money every month to give u?

to myself,

even if the world crumbles. u'll have to live on and carve a better future for urself.
no matter how bad ur life is. it can never be worst then people who r the victim of the earthquake. dying of sickness. starving to death.
so cheer up :) at least look happy.
i know u wish to be vulnerable. to depend on someone. but can u really do that? u know u cant. cuz ur afraid someday that person might jus go away n u'll be lost. do u have someone who u can really depends on? no. in the world u can only really depend on urself.
no matter how tired u are u must perservere.
cuz once u give up and give in on urself. u're gone.

to all,

if u tink ur life is bad. think again.
if u tink ur parents dun buy u what u wanted. u tink its bad? tink again.

dun ask me if i'm fine. cuz i aint.
dun need to cheer me up cuz this scenario has repeated itself for many times and each time i can only stand up by myself.
till one day when i fail to stand. then be there to lend me a hand.